29.4.14












#1 THE RAGE



























He told me
he was afraid of 
commitment
with thirteen
tattoos
on his body.








#2 THE SADNESS








A monster inside led me down a scary road, 
one that left me doubting everything. 
I'd just look at words,
 but they didn't mean anything to me.

Of course,
when the sadness did become too much,
I let myself indulge.
He violated every past memory
we shared together and
invaded every present moment
I had alone. 







#3 THE REACTION










It's a process. 
I have amazing family and friends to turn to.
People who understand that
I will be a black cloud on a very,
very sunny island and love me anyway.

This breakup has been the hardest thing I've ever endured,
but even through the sharp edges of my pain,
I am getting to know myself better than ever before. 

I'm not going to settle for anything less
 than what I fully deserve and want.
I want a successful career.
I want to be Beyoncé-style crazy in love.
I want it all.











#4 THE LIGHT























#5 THE CLOUD





















#6 THE SILENCE


Después se da cuenta de que todos los dedos dejan huella
y entonces llora,
y se pone a buscar a alguien que de verdad se lo merezca,
y después de mirarse desnuda
y después de recordar
todos los nombres de hombre que conoce
se pregunta; 
¿Hay vida en Marte?

























thanks to: Michelle and Diana
END OF VOLUME I