#1 THE RAGE

He told me

he was afraid of 

commitment

with thirteen

tattoos

on his body.

#2 THE SADNESS

A monster inside led me down a scary road, 

one that left me doubting everything. 

I'd just look at words,

 but they didn't mean anything to me.

Of course,

when the sadness did become too much,

I let myself indulge.

He violated every past memory

we shared together and

invaded every present moment

I had alone. 

#3 THE REACTION

It's a process. 

I have amazing family and friends to turn to.

People who understand that

I will be a black cloud on a very,

very sunny island and love me anyway.

This breakup has been the hardest thing I've ever endured,

but even through the sharp edges of my pain,

I am getting to know myself better than ever before. 

I'm not going to settle for anything less

 than what I fully deserve and want.

I want a successful career.

I want to be Beyoncé-style crazy in love.

I want it all.

#4 THE LIGHT

#5 THE CLOUD

#6 THE SILENCE

Después se da cuenta de que todos los dedos dejan huella

y entonces llora,

y se pone a buscar a alguien que de verdad se lo merezca,

y después de mirarse desnuda

y después de recordar
todos los nombres de hombre que conoce

se pregunta; 

¿Hay vida en Marte?

thanks to: Michelle and Diana

END OF VOLUME I